Letter to Harrison

Harrison isn't even two yet, so I know that everything that will go on in the next few days will be a big and confusing adjustment to him. I had wanted to write him a letter so that when he gets older, he will know how we feel about him becoming a big brother. It took me a while to write it, through all the tears. I'd like to blame it on the pregnancy, but I don't think that had anything to do with it. :)


Dear Harrison,

Here we are, my sweet boy. At this point in my pregnancy, I can't help but look back to what it was like two years ago with you. All the emotions. The nerves. The excitement.  I was so ready to welcome you into the world. To kiss you. To hold you. To watch you grow.
I feel all the same things now, but there is something quite different this time...a feeling of fear.
The fear of not knowing what's to come.  The fear of not knowing how it will change your life. The fear of not knowing if you'll fully comprehend the joy and the reason behind why we chose to bring another life into this family.
I would never want you to go through life thinking you aren't enough. That our life wasn't full of happiness and love with you. Because believe me, sweet boy, your life is more than we could've ever dreamed.
I would hope you know that your Mama did this for you. I know how important it is to have a sibling. To have someone to share a bond. To share memories with and to grow up together.
I hope you know that bringing your brother into the world does not mean that we will love you less.  You will always be our first born, our love. You made us into parents.
I'm not going to sit here and go into your role as a big brother. I know that you will be the most kind, loving and gentle big brother.  You have such a warm heart, and you amaze us everyday with the amount of love you share with us all.  I know the same will be felt by your baby brother.  I want to thank you right now for who you are.
I know that everything is going to be great. I know that our family will be together, and pretty soon, we will be bringing your baby brother home. I can't wait for the new life to begin for all of us.
So, again, I want to thank you,  For your smiles.  For your joy and laughter you bring into our lives and soon, your brother's life.  You are truly and amazing little boy, and we are so thankful to be your parents.
We love you, love you, love you more with each day.
Love,
Daddy and Mama

36 Weeks!

As of today, we have 19 days before little Hudson comes into the world. We can't wait!!! We had our first weekly appointment yesterday, along with an ultrasound to see how much he weighed. He weighs 5 lbs and 14 ounces as of right now. With Harrison, I went around 37 weeks and a couple days and he weighed 6 lbs. They are right on track with each other. However, I won't be going eight days past my due date with this little boy, so he may not be as big at birth. Everything measured great. His heart rate was 127, which they say it slows down a little the closer it gets to the end. Dr. G said that both of us look very healthy! Now, it's just waiting until May 21!

36 Weeks

Size of Baby: the size of a honeydew melon 

Total Weight Gain:  holding steady at 12 total lbs

Maternity Clothes: yes!

Gender: BOY!!!!

Movement: a lot. He is slowing down a little...I assume he's running out of room.

Sleep: better! Thanks Dr. G!!

What I miss: being able to walk around without feeling like I just ran a marathon!

Cravings: strawberry jello...yum!!!

Symptoms: just really tired lately...could have something to do with my toddler being extremely active!

Best Moment of the Week: seeing the sweet boy on the ultrasound!

His sweet little profile!!